- 'You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.'

Late updates up here again! Im sad to say, my web life here is depleting really fast. January is gone just like that, & here comes february! Well, february welcomes good plans for everyone don't it? Valentine's day & the new year visiting is getting me all excited. Love or money? You choose. In fact, valentines seems to be an ordinary day for me. Lets see if there would be some sort of 'surprise' awaiting me (not pinning hopes).

School? Pretty average actually, coping I guess? I know im doing just fine, maybe not the best but at least im trying hard. Studying is tiring and tedious. But isn't that what life is? At least I've stopped complaining and just accepting what needs to be done, whether I like it or not. There isn't a choice for me to make so I'll jollywell be good. Doing awesome for my maths and what can just explain how happy & proud I am for myself? It seems like the impossible is proved by I-M-POSSIBLE (split the words up). Hoping to keep it up! *thumbs up

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Being a movie fanatic nowadays, why are all the great movies popping up one by one nowadays?! So far, I've catched the movie Legion & 14 Blades. These two are really really worth the time and price. Here they are!

LEGION.

This movie has many themes strung together! Horror, violence, gruesome and God altogether. Well, it seems like there were many negative comments about it but it worked really differently for me! I actually watched it two times in two days straight in a row. The actions and violence will probably bring you through the movie if you don't get the storyline. I didn't really got the storyline and didn't really bother about it anyway. I believe this movie might have a higher meaning but the storyline was too weak. But the worse part of this movie is, it shows a different evil side of God. For particularly this, im disappointed because it tries to give me friction with God! Still, I believe in God in my own ways as much as everyone does so, this movie is not going to change my point of view about God. But the fact is, we will never know.

14 BLADES.

This is a MUST SEE! Great action scences, with a little love story and humour in it. Im falling in love with Donnie Yen & his hot body. (drools) I live it up for him! He's not young but he can still maintain his awesome moves, stunning. But the hero doesn't always have happy endings, how sad! Fabulous actors in it too, not a single flaw! Girls, its not at a;ll boy-ish if you think it is. To sum this up, awesome movie, fantastic storyline and fabulous cast.

Some more movies which I want to catch a.s.a.p!

MY EX.

I believe thailand horror movies always delivers, doesn't it?

HACHIKO: A DOG'S STORY.

Eager for this one. Lets see if I will tear. (for the very first time for a movie/show)

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Its getting late & I guess I gotta go! Comment me if neccessary. Considering a tagboard? Maybe. Have good days ahead all!

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True love begins when nothing is looked for in return.

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Heaven knows where our future goes or at least where the story goes.

- ' A man loses his sense of direction after four drinks. While a woman loses hers after four kisses.'

Will be keeping this as short as possible as im feeling extremely lethargic this moment. Two days back, I got the best damn thing I've ever had and I've finally adopted a hamster to call my own! Its the cutest little thing on earth, too adorable to be true. Its big name is Hammy, be nice or it'll bite! (gawwwwws~) Yay me, I've overcome-ed every fear of Hammy on just the second day its home and I can't feel any better. Perhaps its a special gift for me to treasure. If you're thinking I'll dump it in a corner when its fat and old, I'll prove you wrong wrong wrong! What a happy family, Daddy (baby) came down to visit Mummy (me) plus our child (hammy)! Its really adorable isn't it, boy?

And the best sickness struck on me too. My throat is going haywire and I really hate feeling so miserable everytime I open my mouth to talk or even when I shut it. Now, evidence that possibility of one spreading cough to another is truly possible. Byebye wednesday school tomorrow, byebye to waking up at six a.m, byebye to three periods of damn combined humans, byebye to three periods of physical education, byebye to three periods of maths. Somehow I feel so good due to skipping school tomorrow! I love my hurt throat! (fake) What a great timing, well I'll miss my lovely friends. KINDLY GIVE AS MANY MC'S AS YOU CAN DOC. BE KIND. I feel so cool now, what a huge change of voice. I am a sexy man hear me?!

Meet my Baby Hammy (be nice) I'll give you a free hole in your pretty/suave face if you don't agree that its just so adorable

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Love is strong yet delicate, it can be broken. To truly love is to understand this. To be in love is to respect this.

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No matter what you do, I'll always stay in love with you.

- 'The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread.'

Have never craved, never loved, never missed the fridays, the weekends as much as I ever did before. What happened to my carefree life? Where did it go? It must have been eaten away, totally eaten away!!! My bed is the ultimate sex now

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Things to do/want to get done with (doubt it'll take months for them to be done):

• Bake cupcakes & cookies for my loved ones (when will this day come)
• Cover up all the shit work I've missed in school (wasn't paying attention/i still dont get it)
• Stop getting worried or paranoid over chemistry&maths (im-possible)
• Spend a quality day with my bbgirl (just what girls like us bestfriends do)
• Spend a lovely day out with my bibi (miss those days)
• Get the fucking 'barrier' between 'us' D.O.N.E W.I.T.H (i want this done so DARN badly)
• Do my very best for every shit in school (i'll try)
• Doll up>dress up> off i head to the town>take nice pictures>eat good food> window shopping>back home at night (this seems like a miracle now)
• Meet up with all my peng-yous & do some good catching up (absolutely no time for this)
• Kkkkkkk-boxxxxxxxxxxx with bbgirl (i can simply just boxxxxxx my own face for this)
• Catch a damn movie in the damn cinema (watch tv at home then have laa)
• Continue to have faith in God that he can lend me a hand on the 'barrier thingy' (im crying out to you Father)
• Continue to believe in the phrase, 'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.' (always and will)
• Get a fish spa done (how long have i been waiting to do this)
• Starbucks: White chocolate ice blended/Vanilla ice blended with that chocolate cake (arghhhhhhhhhhhhh)
• Creamy chicken pasta from pastamania (STOP TEMPTING MYSELF I MEAN IT)
• Release the stress and learn to take things easy in everything I do and everything I want (just gotta stay positive)
• Learn to accomplish the 'heck-care' attitude (maybe some 'people' just don't deserve it)
• Give love to everyone and get love back (this would make me happy)
• Dig out the title of that song I want so badly (put your finger in the air~)
• New pictures of me-hhhhhhhh (if i dont even doll up and step out of this house how is this possible?!)
• Absolutely stop having second thoughts of getting a hamster (i must have the i-want-it-not-becuz-of-impulse attitude)
• Stop being such a coward over holding a hamster in my hand (eeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkk!)
• Get all the info needed to keep a hamster (im doing pretty well in this)
• See the difference of a hamster and a rat, see that they don't and never looked the same (hamsters somehow look like rats, dont they? fuck rats)
• Stay fresh and clean (im not giving it to 'you' and will not)
• Stop feeling so insecure (cant help it)
• Do some skips or hoops to make me grow taller (got to stop lying to myself that being short is a cute and cool thing)
• Wear my new chio shoes out (yay! but wait, WHEN?!)
• Get that sexy black heels from newlook (gotta tell mummy i havent got anything at all for new yearrrrr$)
• Teach 'irritating people' to get a life and stop bugging me (i got better things to do and things to worry about)
• Do something about my fringe (let it stay the same?)

O.M.G. What were those words I wrote above?! My eyes are not lying to me are they? I can't bring myself to accept the fact that I've got this many things to get done and want it done. Wait, there's still more!  Save me ~ I want to order a sucide now

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Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.  To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving. 

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What a dangerous love affair this is.

What can relieve the stress im having? Drowning in piles and piles of work and just everything about s-t-u-D-I-E-s. Im just so caught up with everything till I forgot who I was. When can I get some fun and just some time for myself? Oh God, please give me a deserving break. Praying hard that I'll be able to cope with everything and kill the stress overtime! Should I get a hammy for my own? Lydia needs someone to play with and to adore when she's lonely (miow)~ Meeting my BabyPrince tomorrow, i-can't-wait

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A little bit of love can mean alot to a person who is in need of nourishment. Love is selflessness and unlimited forgiveness. When you understand the meaning of love, you become closer to love itself. When we plant seeds of love, the returns come back to us manifold. Love is a treasure trove that will never run out. Those who can love and give love shall inhabit a most wonderful world.

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Seeing that everything is okay, this feels so great. I wouldn't change a thing about everything now, this is the best feeling I could get. This moment is just perfect, please don't go away. I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by. Feeling safe now, not a single tear, being happy here. You don't have to worry about a thing, I got you. Nothing's taking me away, this is not a game, im here to stay. Our love is stronger than any drug, don't care what others have to say, they don't understand us like we do. Its just so hard to get love like this.

I AM SO

- ANNOYED

-IRRITATED

-ANGRY

-PISSED

-FUCKED UP

JUST OVER 'DUDES' WHO GET SO OBSESSED WITH ME.

(stop blowing my head off, what-a-fucking-burden-you-all-are.)

&DAMMITSCHOOLISDRIVINGMEN-U-T-SFUCKINGP-E-A-N-U-T-S

Lydia is that her Prince finally met the Princess today

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Love is a powerful emotion. It is capable of melting an icy heart and bridging the distance between people. It endows us with creativity and power to transcend the ordinary. It is also the best food for our spiritual development. Love is one of the highest human emotions. When we act out of love, we will reap a harvest of love, and our aims will be easily accomplished. This is because love is all powerful. Love is priceless and does not demand anything in return. It only needs to be propagated from heart to heart, so that all of us can live in a world of love.

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Why aint my heart moving? Why aint my heart stepping forward? I still cant figure it out. Where are those strong emotions I used to have? It seems like I don't feel a thing, you're missing in my heart. So many words for the broken heart, its hard to see in a crimson love. Is this the feeling I need to walk with? You're asking me to feel the things you never show. Why cant I be there where you are?

- 'Forget perfection and aim for improvement.'

School is really taking my muscles and backbones away. My social life will be soon offically depleted. Getting more and more tired out as each day passes, I need a break! Can anyone just give me a word to describe just how exhausted im feeling?! I've got a terrible lack of pictures up here and my lovely camera seems to be rotting. Im darn damn hungry now dammit and I want my k-f-c now K byebai

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A clear and positive mind ensures a bright and happy future. A dark and negative mind traps us in fear and anxiety. It is not easy for us to really make a difference in the world. Even though it is difficult, we can still achieve it if we are willing to put in the effort and remain confident and determined. Some things appear difficult to accomplish not because its complexity dampens our confidence, but because we lack confidence in the first place. The greatest accomplishment in life is for us to try our best to fulfil our roles and responsibilities. Mobilise your determination, confidence and courage to resist temptations. Take care of your mind and avoid being calculative or discriminating.

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Tell me what I want to hear, show me what I want to see. Giving you this last chance to change my heart back again, will you do whatever it takes? I'll see.

- 'It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.'

Started a new second week of school today and im loving every moment in school! Loving the company im having, loving every single awesome friend around me, loving my close pillars of support, loving my family, loving my life (F-I-N-A-L-L-Y),basically im just loving everyone/everything!

Im starting to appreciate myself and everything and everyone around me. After everything I've gone through these tough days, I've come out to be such a strong me which I never thought I would become. And the amazing thing is, it didn't took me much effort to become what I am now. Its just the law of my mind! Im just so contented with everything now, I'll not ask for more. Make this go on forever!

Won't be updating often here due to school and just how busy im getting nowadays! Hope to keep track here whenever possible.

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Finally I see things clear now. Let me get this picture for you baby, what goes around comes back around. Now its your turn to fall, I've been there and back. What you've done to me, you cheated boy, my heart bleeded. You got what you deserved. And now you want somebody to kill the lonely night? You wished you had somebody that can come and make you right? But let me tell you, I ain't somebody. Im not a simple thing. See? You should have listened to me baby.

- ' Only another's eyes have the power to show us how beautiful we can be.'

Heavenly. Two schooldays had just passed and im still feeling positive and excited for more schooldays ahead to come. I got something I want to confess, I cant wait for the teachers to start nagging and I cant wait to study and get serious for this first time! What has become of me? This is so surprising when I realised it. For a good start, I chose my seat to be right in front of the whiteboard and teacher. Hopefully, I can pay more attention and wont have to stick my head up and down like a mad giraffe behind. Have been in deep thoughts of whether I should stop studying after this year and head straight to the ite &  work hard for admission to poly after that or take my o levels, pass the damn it and head to poly. I have zer0 confidence in the o levels and I just want to skip the damn it if I can. This is twirling my mind, confusion is clouding my already-full-packed mind up. Well, I'll just do my best on what I can now and stop worrying about life after that. Have been feeling exhausted and tired out to the damn maximum in school today, so I found my head plopping on the desk just like how the sky falls right down. Hoping to build good strong relationships with all my teachers and friends, but I doubt I can do that for hell chemistry's sake. (ms 'pokka dot', i was kind to help you to clean the board but why the fuck did you shout at me saying that im cleaning the board like a tortise. dont think i'll be afraid of you because you have fucking brown eyes mine are blue fuck you) Lydia you got to focus!

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Though things have somehow changed for the better for the both of us, my heart still hurts so much that I wont be able to call you mine again anymore. I really wished I could know exactly what you are thinking and feeling about us right now. Whenever I rewind us back to the past, I really wished we could do it all over again, make everything right. Tell me is there still hope? Is there even a small glimmer of hope? If only I could see you face to face now, I'll tell you eye to eye how much you mean to me, how much I need you here, how much I cant lose you and how much i truly just love you. Im still hanging on and holding on to you tight, it really breaks my heart that we have to choose this path but all I want now is just a prize at the end of the long pain road. Will you hand me that prize? I hope..

- 'Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.'

2 months just passed in a blink of an eye, and so much has happened and changed between us within this time we had spent together. Now that its all said and done, we'll follow our hearts as friends and lovers. Treating you as a total stranger is the last thing I could bring myself to do. Though its over, I just want you to know that if you fall, stumble down, I'll pick you up off the ground. And if you lose faith in you, I'll give you strength to pull through. I'd be right here just for you. I'll really miss the things we used to do together, but those memories will be locked deep down in my heart. I long for your voice and I would die to hear your laugh and see your smile again. I never wanted to say goodbye, I never wanted to leave your side. The love we once had was something really special to me, I'll whisper a prayer and let the good times roll. Im forcing my shattered heart to heal, I shall not habour any hopes anymore. Why must we end this way? Full of hatred and pain, instead of joy and bliss. I loved you more than I'd ever known, I now know that you are the only one for me. Many nights those tears flew, being myself without anyone, without you. Looking up at the sky wishing we could start all over again, from the day our eyes met till then. The love was just a figment, a figment of our minds. Something we would ponder, but could never express.Our past was deep yet pain, I guess we need to stay as friends now to release the pain. For this I would never regret, the times I've had with you. My days ahead will move on without hope, wishing to be what it is not to be. Time passed, things changed, you moved on, I went my way. I fell for you again, you changed your mind. You let go, I held on you tight. I told you I cared, im sure you did too. I miss you now, and will forever do. I wish you were here, more than ever. Being just your special friend, made it better, so for that, I'll love you forever. There's nothing to hide, baby stop denying that our love flew away like the bird flew from its nest. I love you, and I know you still love me.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you Lim Jing Guo.

Hi readers! Im back here to post, & above are just some recent pictures of me. For those readers & peeps who dropped me messages on my onsugar about my missing updates, my apologies but here am I! Im figuring out the reason why im not blogging as often now, but I hell swear I really want to blog so bad but time is just not on my side. I've did some changes for my template and I feel pretty good about it. I've got so many things to update but where the hell should I start?!?!?!

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So, the school holidays are coming to an end in a few short days & amazingly I dont feel so bad about the reopening of school! Though, I got to start getting used to waking up at six in the damn morning from monday-friday without fail, making my way to school reluctantly, messing my brain up for work and realising my brain would eventually explode at the end of the day. Im feeling positive about school and may it turn out positive once im back there! No more messing or fooling around in school, its a very-very important year for me next year so I'll focus on whats need to be done and not stressing over minor matters anymore. Come on everyone, dont feel bad about the reopening of school! Though to sum it up, this holiday wasn't a good one but may a good brand new year kickstart good schooldays ahead for everyone. Cheers! ~

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Did some soul searching last night and im wondering why I've been so unhappy for so long. Asking and asking myself when will this mess eventually come to an end? People, do you sometimes search for the answer to why your life is such a fuck, why your life is so corked up, why is life so damn unfair, why is life more of the bad times than the good times, why does everything just dont go right and why is life so hard till it gives us more than we can take? This is exactly how I've been feeling for so long, anyone who feels me out there? I have been drowning myself in this pool of trouble and unhappiness and I've finally decided to get myself out. I realised I've got to pick myself up from where I fell and stop getting stuck in this, sitting there doing nothing about everything but hoping for so much thinking that the rescue team would reach out their hands for me. Today came out as a better day for me indeed as I stayed positive throughtout. Im thankful to have many pillars of support around me and they're the ones who really keep me going. Here are three really meaningful quotes which are carved in my heart forever, and these words may be short and simple but please spend some time thinking about the real true meaning of these words. They would mean alot to everyone. Even me, and even you.

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'Life is not merely enjoyment but labourious work.'

'Its the different faces and different games that brought me here.'

'Ponder about the little things that make life great instead of the bad which pulls you down.'

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Is it new year's eve tomorrow? Be it or not, I would like to wish everyone out there a happy good new year ahead and may life be smooth and easy for you as much as it can! For those who did mistakes in the past years, here's a great chance for you to start all over good again. A brand new year, a brand new start for all. All the best to every human out there and you if you are reading this, make the best times of your life! Xoxo;