Dear God.

Last night was one of the worst nights ever, never been so hard on myself before. The truth came to light, tears fell down again. Ended up venting my sadness and misery on a skipping rope. I skipped and skipped till I totally broke down. Everthing is just not worth, some things just cant be helped. Cried my all out to God, begging him to get me out of this mess im in. Indeed, I had a better today. Im really grateful to Him for answering my prayers, I knew he could hear my pain. School is a bore as usual today. I flung-ed my maths test, got a two over a thirty. How sad is that. Thank God there's a retest for it. I really detest studying, like arghhhhhh! Im gonna start panicking very soon, end of year's are just next month next month! I dont want to even think about it. Im drowning in the number of tests going on, it seems like I have so much to do, and so little time for myself.

Did some catching up with Ashton today after so long! Its been quite some time since I last saw him around. Glad he's doing fine, mug hard for your exams next week! I'll see you very soon, need to hang around together yeah! *Smiles.

Been in deep thoughts about my life these few days, I simply cant wait to turn 18. The envy I have between the people who are 18 years old, will soon be gone.. Time please fly fly fly, and make the years go by by by. 2012, I'll await.

Awaiting for my clock to strike 6, and im off to meet mum to get my specs done! Have been waiting for this day. My eyesight is getting bad, worse, screwed. I dont wish to be blind. Hurry tick tick tick clocky!